Thursday, April 17, 2008

My "Vacation"

Ok so last weekend i went to Utah. It was great and all but so not a vacation. We just did too many things and not enough relax time. Plus traveling with a baby is not the funnest thing in the world to do.

On Thursday i flew in and the flight was fine except for the part where Elijah decided that he was going to throw up everything i had fed him when we landed. It was everywhere. And escially in places that i did not want it. To say the least i looked like i had wet my own pants.

Anyways, we then had the baby blessing and we flew home. To say the least this was not a vacation. Traveling with a baby is one of the hardest things that i have probably ever done.

i know this post is late but my life has been crazy.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Lincoln Woodard Part 2

The reason that i had to tell you everything in part 1 is because I made two promises to Lincoln that day. I promised him that my first born son would have his name. I also promised Lincoln that i would tell my children about him everyday. I have not broken those promises to this day.

I look at my son each day and think of Lincoln. Elijah is such a special boy in my family's life. To me he is the reminder that even if there is death there is always new life. Elijah brings so much joy to me just like Lincoln did.

I wish that Lincoln could have known Elijah here on earth, but i know that Lincoln was up there telling Elijah all about our family and was playing with him.


I felt that i needed to keep Elijah's middle name between Nathan and I just till Elijah was born. I can't explain why, but i knew it was the right thing to do.


I am sorry that these posts took so long to make it to my blog, but it was really hard for me to write about that day. I know that it is going to be really really hard for my family to read but i had to tell everyone why i named my son Elijah Lincoln Davis.

Friday, April 4, 2008

Lincoln Woodard Part 1

I remember that fateful day. This is how my side of things went that day that Lincoln died.

I went to bed the previous night thinking to myself "something is going to happen tonight that is going to change my life forever." But i didn't think anything more of it. I woke up around 12:30 AM and i couldn't go back to sleep. I just kept thinking that something is wrong. I need to call Lincoln or Chrissy to make sure everything is ok. But i didn't make that phone call. I now regret not calling.

I finally fell asleep at around 1:30 again and i slept until about 5:00 AM and i just stayed up until i left for school. Before i left for school i thought to myself "i know that there is something wrong. Why am i going to school?"

The first period of the day i just though to to myself that there really is something wrong. When first period was done i thought to myself that i should go to the office and leave school, but instead i went to 2nd period. Maybe 20 minutes into the class i was pulled out by someone from the main office. I had no idea what was in store.

For some reason i thought that i was in trouble. The office lady kept looking at me like something was really wrong. When we made it to the office my uncle Travis was in there and said that we needed to go. So i followed.

When we made it outside of Pleasant Grove high school i asked Travis, "What is going on? What happened.?" I could tell that Travis didn't want to tell me right here but i was being so pushy that he really didn't have a choice.

The next words that came out of Travis' mouth changed my life forever. "Lincoln died last night." I was so caught off guard that i didn't know what to do.

I had made lunch plans with a few of my friends and my boyfriend. I immediately called Nathan and told him that my uncle Lincoln had died, and that i was not going to be able to be at lunch with everyone.

When i got in the car Lori was crying so hard. I still didn't know what to do. I asked if my mom had been called and lori didn't know. So i tried calling my mom but she did not answer. We were on our way to Lincoln and Chrissy's house.

This part is a little more scattered because i have blocked something from my mind plus everything happened so fast that i don't quite remember what happened first and what came next.

When we made it to Lincoln and Chrissy's house the first sounds that i heard was Chrissy crying so hard and just saying Lincoln's name over and over. I was just so overwhelmed. I didn't know what to do. I can't even tell you who was there at that point. I remember Grandpa Lonnie pulling up later.

I couldn't bring myself to go in the house. I knew that i was within 10 feet of his body and it was just too much to bear. I tried calling my mom again and this time she answered. Luckily someone else had told her. I don't know if i could have brought myself to the point where i could have told her.

To be continued